It really gets to me when I read how people are so sad- but have it so good. If you have a great boyfriend, a loving family, good friends and nothing is going wrong…life should be good. But I know how even with all those things, sometimes it isn’t enough. I’ve been in that situation and have still felt lonelier than I have ever felt. We are all so interconnected- yet so distant. Even those with it all in this day and age, can feel worthless. That, in itself, really, really saddens me. It feels that although there are all of these 6 billion people, it is really hard to find people who can sit and pour their heart out to you. No one trusts anyone. We all fight our own battles solo. Maybe if we listened, didn’t judge and gave advice… then maybe there would be a few more smiles. Maybe then there would be a few less tears. 

(via drugsandcocopops)

The future really terrifies me. I’m terrified i’ll wake up one day and realise that my life is boring. My worse fear is a boring life. I want to do something, something incredible, even if its practicably unnoticeable, I just want to leave the world knowing I have made it a better place. I don’t want to sit there at a desk thinking- is this all there is? Because life is to precious, life is too short, to be sitting around doing something you hate. I’m not going to do something which bores me. I want to help in every way I can. I’m not leaving knowing I could have done more.   

I’m happy, in the simplest sense. I’m happy right now. In this moment. And I guess that’s all that matters. I think maybe when you begin to realise that the world is a big place, being hung up on little things seems so…insignificant. Life goes on. We are lonely, primitive people. But sometimes we can be beautiful and create beautiful memories. I miss so many people and so many things. But I try to change it, I’ve tried too god damm hard to change it. Some people are set in their ways and you just can’t mean something to them no matter how much you try. So I’m just letting things grow in the way they want to. I’m taking control of my life. I’m not going to be disposable to anyone. I won’t miss those who don’t want to be missed. I won’t regret what once made me smile. I’m really done with trying. Life is beautiful and I’m going to start living it. No regrets any more. I have few perfect friends and a great future ahead of me. I’m letting it all go. Finally. And that in the simplest sense, to me, is happiness.